Free from Bondage

My biological father passed away when I was four years old. It was a tragic loss making it hard to cope with everyday life. It was just my mom, my sister, and me for five years.
When tragedy, loss, or desperation strike a house hold, it is natural for people to run to a comfort zone. People always are looking for a god to rely on, whether it is Christ Almighty or an idol. Growing up, missing a father, I grew an attachment to food. At a young age I was gorging to fill the void in my heart. This 'Food god' became a habit for years to come. When my parents would confront me on this issue, I was quick to deny it, or become offended. As I grew older i ran to food every time something made me uncomfortable or sad.
Finally I hit a wall, I did not want to be a slave to that god anymore. I was unhappy, unhealthy, and even more depressed than I started out. Sunday night i cried out to heaven and hell "I DO NOT WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE'. It was then when i realized that this was more than an addiction, it was a demonic stronghold. Admitting that to myself was the first sign of redemption, I had been lying to myself for years because i didn't want to be the girl who had the 'eating disorder'.
Coming to G42 Leadership Academy was not an attempt to find myself, it is to prepare myself and set the bar for my journey ahead. In this experience I want to be completely real with myself and those around me. When this revelation came to me Sunday night i had planned to tell my best friend, Alaina and my mentor, Stephanie. During class that morning, we were talking about being full in the Holy Spirit and shutting down strongholds. We began going around being honest and open about what we were dealing with and how to be 'full' anyway. Sure enough my heart began pounding like crazy and my face became hot. I did not want to share this with 20 people i had only met a week ago, I didn't even like to share it with myself. I heard God say clearly to confess it with my mouth and declare it gone.
So I told everyone about this stronghold that had taken over my life, my voice shaking and face turning red. I ended with, "but I'm done, so i am saying right now to Heaven and Hell that this has no more control over me and i am free." The moment i said that, I literally felt a heaviness lifted off of me; Demon gone. It's amazing the authority you have in the Lord, Amen. The people i had confessed this to supported me and loved on me. Of course, right after i felt vulnerable and naked, regretting telling everyone. After the class, people came up to me thanking me for sharing and being honest, which shut the enemy down once again.
This is not hard to share now because I AM DELIVERED IN THE NAME OF JESUS and will never deal with that again. Thank you Jesus, Praise Jesus. This Demon has lied to me, abused me, and manipulated me for 14 years, and I am free.