Last night was the Graduation Ceremony of 5 AMAZING G42 Interns. As the Ceremony went on it began to hit me that i only had three more months here. A constant theme of the last month has been freedom. Freedom in every aspect of the word. I think it is starting to occur to me that i actually get to do this thing. it's becoming more tangible.
When i first got here i asked God to make me his, i was sick of messing around and i was hungry. It's funny how we ask God to break us and then when he does, we don't like it. February brought in a lot of pain and hard truths that i had to deal with. I was being cleaned out and even though it hurt, i embraced it. I wanted God and all of him. A graduate gave me a word in the midst of all of it, that God was going to bring me into a
season of showing me how much he loved me.
and he did.
I began to be romanced by the God of all, the King of Kings. The Lord of EVERYTHING pursued me. It started with worship one night, David Fredriksz prophesied wonderful truths that empowered me. Then the Holy Spirit filled me with his joy and laughter, and i couldn't stop laughing. I have never felt so light then i did in that moment, and God continued to show his love for me in little things like that. Before i knew it i was beginning to love him back. It has never been simple for me to let anyone or anything touch that part of my heart, but i found that i absentmindedly gave the whole thing away. Being pursued and loved everyday and every minute made it easy to fall in love. I have much experience as God as the Judge and some of God as the Father. God as my husband is something completely new. If it sounds like i am completely and utterly in love, it's because i am. I can't get over God's beauty and greatness. It is astounding to me how wonderful he is, and all he does, and has done. I have always been independent, but now i can let God take care of everything and can let him be a consistent authority in my life. My heart never stops fluttering, i can't get enough and can't give enough.
On top of learning to love, freedom is evident. You will hear Dave Hearn say a lot, "We win this thing". I am beginning to get it. All of these little petty things in life don't even matter in the grand scheme of things. We all belong in the kingdom of God and it is our job to bring it to earth. Can we be people of excellence? Can we really see God become alive in this generation? yes. We win. It's that simple, we wake up in the morning and choose in. God is victorious and on his throne. With all that said i am stepping into deeper level, we all are. These next three months are going to be vital for all of us, shaping and molding us further. We all are finally over ourselves and all in. To all my supporters i want to thank you for being a part of this, you have blessed me so much. G42 has been a life changing experience and i can't wait to get more.
"God you are my God, I am a God person, we live together."- Ted Hanson.
When i first got here i asked God to make me his, i was sick of messing around and i was hungry. It's funny how we ask God to break us and then when he does, we don't like it. February brought in a lot of pain and hard truths that i had to deal with. I was being cleaned out and even though it hurt, i embraced it. I wanted God and all of him. A graduate gave me a word in the midst of all of it, that God was going to bring me into a
season of showing me how much he loved me.
and he did.
I began to be romanced by the God of all, the King of Kings. The Lord of EVERYTHING pursued me. It started with worship one night, David Fredriksz prophesied wonderful truths that empowered me. Then the Holy Spirit filled me with his joy and laughter, and i couldn't stop laughing. I have never felt so light then i did in that moment, and God continued to show his love for me in little things like that. Before i knew it i was beginning to love him back. It has never been simple for me to let anyone or anything touch that part of my heart, but i found that i absentmindedly gave the whole thing away. Being pursued and loved everyday and every minute made it easy to fall in love. I have much experience as God as the Judge and some of God as the Father. God as my husband is something completely new. If it sounds like i am completely and utterly in love, it's because i am. I can't get over God's beauty and greatness. It is astounding to me how wonderful he is, and all he does, and has done. I have always been independent, but now i can let God take care of everything and can let him be a consistent authority in my life. My heart never stops fluttering, i can't get enough and can't give enough.
On top of learning to love, freedom is evident. You will hear Dave Hearn say a lot, "We win this thing". I am beginning to get it. All of these little petty things in life don't even matter in the grand scheme of things. We all belong in the kingdom of God and it is our job to bring it to earth. Can we be people of excellence? Can we really see God become alive in this generation? yes. We win. It's that simple, we wake up in the morning and choose in. God is victorious and on his throne. With all that said i am stepping into deeper level, we all are. These next three months are going to be vital for all of us, shaping and molding us further. We all are finally over ourselves and all in. To all my supporters i want to thank you for being a part of this, you have blessed me so much. G42 has been a life changing experience and i can't wait to get more.
"God you are my God, I am a God person, we live together."- Ted Hanson.
